As I sit here typing this my family is enjoying Domino's… I ordered it, I picked the toppings.  I think that this is me living through them.  Now I sit and think about the beef stew I will be heating up and I smell the amazing aroma of 2 2 topping medium pizzas.

  I was putting my pajamas on before the pizza got here and saw a heart box of chocolates from Valentine's on the dresser.  I wanted to cry.  I wanted to cry because this is hard!  But I want to be thinner and healthier but I want that pizza and I want that chocolate.  I don't want to be this person anymore!  Like I said, I wanted to cry and believe me I tried…  However, my hair is too tight and it hurts to make my ugly cry face!  So then I just laughed (didn't hurt as much).

I have to keep remembering that this is what I want and that this will be worth it.  I haven't lost as much weight as I want because I keep cheating.  I had Mexican food last weekend.  I had chips, salsa & vodka on Friday and then I had a burger and fries from Ruby Tuesday's on Sun!! WTH is wrong with me?!  I know what I have to do to get what I want but I just can't control myself!

All I can do at this point is to do better and learn front the mistakes that I make.  Today I did amazing and after I finish this big bowl of beef stew I will be at 1100 calories for the day!  Not to shabby and I only almost "tried" to cry once!

Food Food Food

   I know that I have mentioned before that I am on a new life journey of being healthy and loosing weight.  I have never been happy with by body or the way that I fit into clothes.  And like every other woman, I DREAD trying on clothes.  It doesn't always end in me crying but there have definitely been times that it has.  It's really been a life long battle since about 3rd or 4th grade.  There have been ups and downs, successes and failures.  It seems like the last 7 years has just been uphill and I don't mean success!  I mean the scale!  I always said that by the time I was 30 I would be healthy and thin.  I'm 31 now and I can tell you that didn't happen!  I did however quit smoking about 5 years ago!  After having my 3rd and maybe last bundle of joy I've decided to take the plunge and a make the choice to change.

  Since I have been an independent distributer of AdvoCare for about a year now I thought it was time to do the 24- day Challenge!  It's something tangible to let the journey begin.  I finished the Challenge this last week and came down 11 lbs.  I know that is a step but I had hoped for much more.  Okay, well maybe only 5 lbs more.  Don't get me wrong, I love what I have accomplished and I can feel the difference.  I know that this isn't going to happen overnight and that this will take some time.  I have support from my family and I have motivation from other bloggers and other success stories that I follow. I think that my mindset is right and choice has been made!

And of course, I found motivation in a quote from Thomas:
     "I think I can, I think I can"

Dirty Hair Don't Care

   I know that I'm not the only person out there that hates washing their hair.  I happen to have thick wavy hair... that I hate washing.  Those of you that know me know this to be true!  It's not just because the act of washing, rinsing, repeating & conditioning take so long but then I have to actually dry, brush and straighten it!  Whaaaaaa    I wash probably every 2 days… okay who am I kidding, since I am not working I wash every 3 or 4 days.  So, when I have somewhere that I have to go (grocery shopping) and I haven't washed or straightened my hair, I might need to fix those oily roots.  Of course I'm going to grab my dry shampoo and re-do my flippydo (messy bun thing).  I have been using TRESemme dry for about 3 years now and I like he outcome but I hate how it smells!  I'm not a big fan of the Hawaiian smell.  I knew there were other options but I guess I was too lazy to look.

   Since moving to the Chicago area I have became a biiiig Meijer fan.  Who doesn't want to earn money off just for spending money?!  Anyway, I had a coupon for "buy 3 Pantene products get $5 off" SCORE.  We always need shampoo.  I figured that I would get a dry shampoo while I was at it.  Lo and behold, it's AMAZING!!!  I was going to wash my hair yesterday but I thought "hey, why wash my hair when I could try out my new dry shampoo" Perfect idea!  Did I mention that it's AMAZING?  It still smells a little like hairspray but the it sprays smooth and the texture is nicer.  It's not a sticky and smells a little fresher.  Now I won't have to wash my hair for another 3 days! LOL Just kidding I will wash tonight ;)

Here's a pic for the rest of ya that don't like washing your hair either

House of Illness

   We thought we would spending a nice weekend in Champaign for Valentine's weekend and spending time with family (we did get some good family time in).…  Everything was going well until Sunday night.  My 10 month old spent all night vomiting.  Then we get home on Monday and my 8 year old starting throwing up. Tuesday came and my Fiancé was throwing up!  I mean, can I get a break here!?  At least I didn't get sick (or least I haven't yet) and my 3 year old hasn't gotten sick either.  He is the worst sick person I know!  It doesn't matter if I have bowl right under his head for him to throw up in, he is running around puking all over the place like a mad man!  I think he just hasn't had enough practice yet.  If that's even what you call it. Practice LOL

   You would think a house full of sick people doesn't sound that bad but, now I feel like I walk around smelling like vomit and diarrhea!  Not to mention all the laundry!  At least everyone has clean bedding now.  And I don't mind the baby being extra needy for a couple of days.  I know that one day he won't want me as much as he does now and I will miss it!  I do have to say that he is the sweetest most cuddliest baby I've had.  See, staying at home has it's perks!

For now I will keep Bleach and Lysol handy and hope all the vitamins I take will keep me from getting sick!

The Addiction of Food

   I have been an independent distributer for AdvoCare for over a year and I am just now doing their main seller… the 24-Day Challenge!  Little behind I know but, better late than never right?  My 3rd child is almost 1 year old and I have yet to lose the baby weight from the 1st heathen that is almost 9!!!
Again, better late than never… right?  I'm on day 23 and I've lost 10 lbs!  Okay, so I had lost 10 lbs and then we went home to Champaign for the weekend… I can't go to Champaign and not have El Toro.  Gained a couple back but that's okay, I'll just have to crack down on a strict clean diet for the next couple of days.

  Food is such an addiction for me.  I know that I want to lose weight.  I know that I have clothes in the basement I want to get back out.  I know that I want to feel good about myself again. Yet, I am not wanting to eat healthy and I am not wanting to have to think about everything I put in my mouth.  I figured the best motivation for me to start this new journey is to start with the 24-day Challenge.  The idea of eating healthy and "clean" is easier to adjust to when it's a written out plan of what to eat when. I have one day left and I haven't exactly lost what I wanted to lose but I also plan on continuing on eating healthy, counting calories and thinking about everything I eat.  I have ordered more Spark because I don't think I can live without it and I plan on slowly trying new products.  If ya'll have any favorites list in the comments!  I'd also like to hear any success stories and anything to motivate me and others!!