Yesterday and today the scale had some very nice things to say about me!  It's been a long time since the scale told me sweet nothings.  It's been talking a lot of shit to me for the last 2 years.  I like it much better this way!!  I know that this doesn't mean that I can stop my hard work and that I have to keep pushing forward and working hard for what I want.  It's so easy to give up because the results are not instant.  It takes so much persistence!  Days like today is what gives me the motivation I need.

I can't wait to see what she has to say in the next couple of days!! :)

Oops...

  I know that everyone knows I am new to this blogging thing.  I guess I didn't really think about it but I hadn't gotten any comments yet.  Therefore, I didn't know what happened when I got one… I thought I would be notified by my Google+ acct or by email, maybe phone call or voice mail… Anything!

NOPE!

   The other day I was looking at some of the settings and selected to share comments with Google+.  I figured why not, my blogger acct had already been linked to my Google+ acct.  Little did I realize that there were ways that things had to be done in order for even ME to see the comment.  Not to mention that in order to comment you HAD to have a Google+ acct!  I want everyone to be able to comment on my blog!

   Here is the "About Google+ Comments" that I found:

Features of Google+ Comments

Google+ Comments look similar to traditional Blogger comments, but have some important differences. For example:

• When you leave a comment on a blog, you'll see the option, checked by default, to also share that comment to Google+.
• Google+ posts that link to blog posts will show up as a comment underneath those blog posts
• If original comment is shared to Google+, replies to the comment on the blog will show up in Google+ and vice versa, but only to the people that the original comment was shared with
• If a comment is not shared with the blog author, the blog author will not be able to see the comment in either location
• As the author of a post, you’ll receive Google+ notifications when readers comment on or share your blog post.

Uuuhhh What?!

Needless to say, my blogger acct is no longer linked to my Google+ & anyone is welcome to view and comment on my blog as they please!  Don't get me wrong, I still love Google+, I just know that everyone is on that ship with me.  I figured I needed to share this incase anyone else is thinking of clicking random boxes.

***Sorry to all of the people that commented on my blog today that didn't and will not be showing up. I still appreciate the thought even though I don't know who or what what said :)

Brows for Days

   Have you noticed all these full eyebrows everyone has these days?  I have had the same eyebrow shape for as long as I could remember.  I have tried to grow them out and it just doesn't happen.  Since I'm on this whole life change thing, I figure why not?  Plus, I'm pretty sure that the left one is thinner than the right.  Not sure how long that's been going on but that shit needs to be corrected.  I already have a huge scar on my left eyebrow and eye lid so I don't need my eye to look anymore wonky!

   Anyway, with me having plucked my eyes since the 4th grade I am having a hard time putting the tweezers down.  I mean, I have to still pluck a little bit.  I'm growing them out, not going au natural! This is hard!  Every time I look in the mirror I want to pluck, pluck & pluck some more!  Did I mention how bad I want to pluck 'em?  I fill them in a little with eyebrow powder thinking that will make it better…. NOPE!  They are still looking crazy!  It reminds me of a game my daughter has on her iPod where she is fixing their faces and giving them makeup.

   Okay, mine aren't that bad but still, you get my point.  By the way, when I looked up to find this game picture you wouldn't believe the crazy eyebrows that people actually think are going to work for them.  Now, I know everyone is wondering what mine look like!  Even if you aren't, here they are!

   Believe me they look crazier in person!  Maybe next time I'll actually use a real camera besides my phone :)  I'll keep you posted on how long I can keep up with letting them grow out!

One Day at a Time

   As I sit here typing this my family is enjoying Domino's… I ordered it, I picked the toppings.  I think that this is me living through them.  Now I sit and think about the beef stew I will be heating up and I smell the amazing aroma of 2 2 topping medium pizzas.

  I was putting my pajamas on before the pizza got here and saw a heart box of chocolates from Valentine's on the dresser.  I wanted to cry.  I wanted to cry because this is hard!  But I want to be thinner and healthier but I want that pizza and I want that chocolate.  I don't want to be this person anymore!  Like I said, I wanted to cry and believe me I tried…  However, my hair is too tight and it hurts to make my ugly cry face!  So then I just laughed (didn't hurt as much).

I have to keep remembering that this is what I want and that this will be worth it.  I haven't lost as much weight as I want because I keep cheating.  I had Mexican food last weekend.  I had chips, salsa & vodka on Friday and then I had a burger and fries from Ruby Tuesday's on Sun!! WTH is wrong with me?!  I know what I have to do to get what I want but I just can't control myself!

All I can do at this point is to do better and learn front the mistakes that I make.  Today I did amazing and after I finish this big bowl of beef stew I will be at 1100 calories for the day!  Not to shabby and I only almost "tried" to cry once!

Food Food Food

   I know that I have mentioned before that I am on a new life journey of being healthy and loosing weight.  I have never been happy with by body or the way that I fit into clothes.  And like every other woman, I DREAD trying on clothes.  It doesn't always end in me crying but there have definitely been times that it has.  It's really been a life long battle since about 3rd or 4th grade.  There have been ups and downs, successes and failures.  It seems like the last 7 years has just been uphill and I don't mean success!  I mean the scale!  I always said that by the time I was 30 I would be healthy and thin.  I'm 31 now and I can tell you that didn't happen!  I did however quit smoking about 5 years ago!  After having my 3rd and maybe last bundle of joy I've decided to take the plunge and a make the choice to change.

  Since I have been an independent distributer of AdvoCare for about a year now I thought it was time to do the 24- day Challenge!  It's something tangible to let the journey begin.  I finished the Challenge this last week and came down 11 lbs.  I know that is a step but I had hoped for much more.  Okay, well maybe only 5 lbs more.  Don't get me wrong, I love what I have accomplished and I can feel the difference.  I know that this isn't going to happen overnight and that this will take some time.  I have support from my family and I have motivation from other bloggers and other success stories that I follow. I think that my mindset is right and choice has been made!

And of course, I found motivation in a quote from Thomas:
     "I think I can, I think I can"