I was putting my pajamas on before the pizza got here and saw a heart box of chocolates from Valentine's on the dresser. I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry because this is hard! But I want to be thinner and healthier but I want that pizza and I want that chocolate. I don't want to be this person anymore! Like I said, I wanted to cry and believe me I tried… However, my hair is too tight and it hurts to make my ugly cry face! So then I just laughed (didn't hurt as much).
I have to keep remembering that this is what I want and that this will be worth it. I haven't lost as much weight as I want because I keep cheating. I had Mexican food last weekend. I had chips, salsa & vodka on Friday and then I had a burger and fries from Ruby Tuesday's on Sun!! WTH is wrong with me?! I know what I have to do to get what I want but I just can't control myself!
All I can do at this point is to do better and learn front the mistakes that I make. Today I did amazing and after I finish this big bowl of beef stew I will be at 1100 calories for the day! Not to shabby and I only almost "tried" to cry once!
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